It seems like every time I make the
decision to eat healthy and be a better person someone comes through like
Godzilla and wrecks my whole plan. Today I had planned on having a protein
shake for breakfast and lunch, and then pasta and a salad for dinner. Well
thankfully my mother sent left over pizza home with me last night, and the guy
I guess I am seeing took me out to sonic today for lunch. So there goes my
whole plan to eat healthy right out the window. I had lost 2 pounds over the
last week, but now I figure I gained about 3. That seems to be how it goes.
Every time I lose some weight I gain it back plus some!! As if my body could
afford to take that on.
I remember it was just one year ago
that I was down to my goal weight and still losing. I can’t imagine being at
that weight now. I just wish that it would fall off. I wish I could eat however
I want and never work out and yet still lose all kinds of weight. Oh what it
would be like to be skinny. Or even just toned up. Right now I just feel sloppy
and gross!!! I miss the days of being able to put my tennis shoes on and just
start running. 3 miles was nothing back in those days. Now if I can run a mile
without stopping I am ecstatic. Which is just pathetic.
I know
that it really doesn’t do any good to complain about my weight. It isn’t like
the more that I complain the thinner I will become. Life doesn’t work that way.
If I really want to lose weight then I just have to say “NO!” when someone asks
me to eat something that I know I shouldn’t. Or if T wants to take me to lunch
then get a dang salad! It isn’t that hard. You would think with me being a
vegetarian I would be skinny, but nooooo they just have to make French fries so
freaking delicious!!! And brownies…brownies are good too…sigh.
Tonight
will be better though! I’ll feed T my leftover pizza and I will just drink a
protein shake. That gets the pizza out of my hair and him off my back about not
consuming enough protein.
R
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