Sigh. So it's been a rough day.

So it's been a really rough day for me. I just keep thinking about how I'm not thin. How I'm not skinny. How I'm not perfect. My thinspo blog is seriously depressing. I haven't cried in quite some time, but today I did. I just saw my reflection and started crying. It's disgusting. I'm disgusting and it's no wonder T doesn't want to define us. I mean who would. I'm just this disgusting, fat, sloppy, nasty person. I can't take it anymore. All I want to do is just fall asleep and never wake up. Ever. God. I can hardly breathe I feel so desperate. Why can't I be happy? Why can't I be skinny? Why can't i be perfect? 

Fml. 

R