Hahaha! Who are we kidding here? I
am neither scandalous nor an elitist!! However, living in a small town is very
much like living in a soap opera. Everyone knows everything about everyone else.
Or at least they think they do. The funny thing is, this town really isn’t even
THAT small. You’d think that people would grow up and get over the fact that everyone
lives and thinks differently. That really is asking too much though I suppose. K
Where, you may ask, does the title
of this post come from then? Well…today, I got hit on…by a married guy.
Married, as in said “I do”, tux and white dress, married! The unfortunate and
pathetic part about it was, that in the back of my head I was flattered. He is
a cute guy that NEVER would have even known of my existence in high school. I
couldn’t have caught his eye back then if I wore a neon shirt with lights. For some
reason though, he noticed me. He had
asked me when I was free. After getting over the shock of him asking that I told
him next time his wife wasn’t home. (Of course I said this sarcastically) To which
he replied, “Well that’s pretty frequent.” I couldn’t believe it!! I mean
is there no since of loyalty between
spouses these days? I just don’t understand. I’ve never cheated on a boyfriend,
and I sure don’t intend to. It is cruel and heartless. If you have the desire
to be with someone else then let go of the one you have. Set them free and let
them find someone who loves and cares about them enough to not have wandering
eyes.
I am not pretending to be an expert
on these things, but as a communications major I find that saying what’s on
your mind is more than a little important. Keeping open lines of communication
helps a relationship stay healthy and honest. I was cheated on once. He was the
very first person I ever loved. It has taken some time, but I’ve forgiven him.
I wish he would have told me that he had stopped feeling for me romantically,
instead of cheating on me. It would have hurt like hell to hear, but I could
respect that decision. His choice to go out and bang a co-worker I can’t
respect. Again I say it is cruel and heartless.
ANNNNYWAY, let’s move on from the
past and the dramatic morning that I had.
I’m
hoping that today I do better as far as eating goes. I ended up eating half a
slice of pizza and a protein shake for dinner. This morning the scale put me at
the same weight I was yesterday. Which I guess isn’t a bad thing. Today has
gone good so far. I mixed my protein stuff in a cup of coffee which was
disgusting and I will NEVER do that again, but I’m still full and that’s all
that really matters. I have a cheese and lettuce sandwich with an apple. Not
too shabby…I hope. All I know is that the feeling of failure, desperation, and
depression that I felt last night is not acceptable. I can’t let myself get
that blue. Everything will eventually be okay. I’ve just got work hard and put
my all into losing weight and living healthier!
I can
do it!
R
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