BL41

07/25/13
Weight 169.0

         It's definitely not my best week, but it's not my worst!! Any weight I lose I need to look at as a small victory! 7 days prior I weighed so many pounds or oz more! I've just to keep it up and STAY motivated!! I know that I can do this! It's time to say goodbye to the fat jeans and flowy shirts and hello to skinny jeans and nice fitting tops! There is no reason that I shouldn't be proud of the body I have! Christian's say your body is a temple and there is definitely truth to that! I only have one life and one body! I need to treat it with the utmost respect and care. If I don't, then my one life may end shorter than it should!!
        All that being said, I want to piss and moan for a minute....It's sooooo hard to lose weight when you're dating/ semi living with someone who wants to gain it!! T has been working over the last month and a half or so to put on weight! He's always trying to get me to go out to eat, or cook big dinners. I can't tell you how many times I've heard "*puppy dog eyes will you make brownies...pleaseeeeee." Which of course I always cave. It would probably help if I opened up to him and told him how I feel about my weight and that I am really trying to work on it. It's just hard to do that. It's hard to look someone you like a lot, and want to like you back a lot and say "HEY look at me I have a HUGE flaw...I'm fat!" I mean obviously he knows he sees me everyday, but to point it out so blatantly..idk. That will take a lot of  courage and I'm not sure that I have it.
       I guess I just need to put that aside. I should be focusing on the my goal. Keeping my eyes on the prize! I may not have the money for a new wardrobe at the moment, but once I'm done I'll need new clothes to fit my new body. Everyone knows shopping when you feel confident and pretty is a blast!!
       Now that I've had my fill of complaining