Be Better. Live Better.

Today I found out that one of my co-workers ran into a church this Sunday and began firing shots. Thankfully nobody was hurt! He was tackled by two members of the congregation. Then taken into custody. It seems insane that just the week before I had a conversation with him. What bothers me about this whole thing is that something felt off when I talked to him, but instead of trying to talk to him and make him feel like a person with value I did my best “I’m busy” look and left. Perhaps if I’d been nicer or more open things would be different. I’m not beating myself up about it because it is what it is. The only thing I can do now I learn from this experience.

 

What does this mean for me? Well I think for starters I need to start being more positive and nice. I take after my dad as far as people skills go. As whole I don’t like people. I just don’t they are loud and annoying. However, there is this part of me that enjoys talking to friends, family, or even strangers. As a public relations major I have been working really hard on honing in to this side of my personality. I should never quit working on my people skills. As I’ve said before meeting and making good contacts is incredibly important. The more personable I am the more likely I am to leave an impression on someone.

 

T is always telling me “there is no reason that we should not be immaculate at everything we do!” While I think he might be acting a tad dramatic, for some reason today I agree with him. Maybe I won’t be perfect at everything I do, but I need to DAMN sure try and do my best at everything. 4:30 am comes really early in the morning, but after doing it for almost 6 months now it’s time I wake up when my alarm goes off, get my butt out of bed, fix my hair, do my make-up, and feel ready to take on the day. I know when I wake up 15 minutes before I have to leave, slap on some make-up, and throw my hair in a pony tail I don’t feel 100%. I don’t feel confident. Instead I feel down and ugly. Like I might as well have stayed in bed. Looking good is the key to feeling confident. For some people that’s a nice pair of jeans and a spiffy blouse, for others it might be a dressy skirt and fancy sweater. Whatever makes a person feel happy and self assured that’s what they should wear. My work sadly limits my clothing choices, but that’s no reason to give up!!!

 

Moving on from appearance giving my all at work is something I need to work harder at. I know I’m sitting here right now writing a blog post, but it’s break time so I’m good. ;) Anyway, whenever I start a new project I need to make sure I’m doing my best to get it finished in a timely manner and as organized as possible. I’ve always said I find my self value in what job I am working. If that really is true then I need to be putting more energy into this job. Give it my all! If I did that I can only imagine how I would feel at the end of the week.

 

My break is almost over so I’ll wrap this up! What I’m trying to say is, if I work harder at being a people person, took better care of myself, and gave my all at work (or school once it starts back up) then I would not only feel better, but be better. I don’t think I would have to fake confidence anymore. I would just wake up and know that I could take on whatever life decided to throw my way.

 

R