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07/25/13
Weight 169.0

         It's definitely not my best week, but it's not my worst!! Any weight I lose I need to look at as a small victory! 7 days prior I weighed so many pounds or oz more! I've just to keep it up and STAY motivated!! I know that I can do this! It's time to say goodbye to the fat jeans and flowy shirts and hello to skinny jeans and nice fitting tops! There is no reason that I shouldn't be proud of the body I have! Christian's say your body is a temple and there is definitely truth to that! I only have one life and one body! I need to treat it with the utmost respect and care. If I don't, then my one life may end shorter than it should!!
        All that being said, I want to piss and moan for a minute....It's sooooo hard to lose weight when you're dating/ semi living with someone who wants to gain it!! T has been working over the last month and a half or so to put on weight! He's always trying to get me to go out to eat, or cook big dinners. I can't tell you how many times I've heard "*puppy dog eyes will you make brownies...pleaseeeeee." Which of course I always cave. It would probably help if I opened up to him and told him how I feel about my weight and that I am really trying to work on it. It's just hard to do that. It's hard to look someone you like a lot, and want to like you back a lot and say "HEY look at me I have a HUGE flaw...I'm fat!" I mean obviously he knows he sees me everyday, but to point it out so blatantly..idk. That will take a lot of  courage and I'm not sure that I have it.
       I guess I just need to put that aside. I should be focusing on the my goal. Keeping my eyes on the prize! I may not have the money for a new wardrobe at the moment, but once I'm done I'll need new clothes to fit my new body. Everyone knows shopping when you feel confident and pretty is a blast!!
       Now that I've had my fill of complaining

Be Better. Live Better.

Today I found out that one of my co-workers ran into a church this Sunday and began firing shots. Thankfully nobody was hurt! He was tackled by two members of the congregation. Then taken into custody. It seems insane that just the week before I had a conversation with him. What bothers me about this whole thing is that something felt off when I talked to him, but instead of trying to talk to him and make him feel like a person with value I did my best “I’m busy” look and left. Perhaps if I’d been nicer or more open things would be different. I’m not beating myself up about it because it is what it is. The only thing I can do now I learn from this experience.

 

What does this mean for me? Well I think for starters I need to start being more positive and nice. I take after my dad as far as people skills go. As whole I don’t like people. I just don’t they are loud and annoying. However, there is this part of me that enjoys talking to friends, family, or even strangers. As a public relations major I have been working really hard on honing in to this side of my personality. I should never quit working on my people skills. As I’ve said before meeting and making good contacts is incredibly important. The more personable I am the more likely I am to leave an impression on someone.

 

T is always telling me “there is no reason that we should not be immaculate at everything we do!” While I think he might be acting a tad dramatic, for some reason today I agree with him. Maybe I won’t be perfect at everything I do, but I need to DAMN sure try and do my best at everything. 4:30 am comes really early in the morning, but after doing it for almost 6 months now it’s time I wake up when my alarm goes off, get my butt out of bed, fix my hair, do my make-up, and feel ready to take on the day. I know when I wake up 15 minutes before I have to leave, slap on some make-up, and throw my hair in a pony tail I don’t feel 100%. I don’t feel confident. Instead I feel down and ugly. Like I might as well have stayed in bed. Looking good is the key to feeling confident. For some people that’s a nice pair of jeans and a spiffy blouse, for others it might be a dressy skirt and fancy sweater. Whatever makes a person feel happy and self assured that’s what they should wear. My work sadly limits my clothing choices, but that’s no reason to give up!!!

 

Moving on from appearance giving my all at work is something I need to work harder at. I know I’m sitting here right now writing a blog post, but it’s break time so I’m good. ;) Anyway, whenever I start a new project I need to make sure I’m doing my best to get it finished in a timely manner and as organized as possible. I’ve always said I find my self value in what job I am working. If that really is true then I need to be putting more energy into this job. Give it my all! If I did that I can only imagine how I would feel at the end of the week.

 

My break is almost over so I’ll wrap this up! What I’m trying to say is, if I work harder at being a people person, took better care of myself, and gave my all at work (or school once it starts back up) then I would not only feel better, but be better. I don’t think I would have to fake confidence anymore. I would just wake up and know that I could take on whatever life decided to throw my way.

 

R

It's a Monday!

Bleh! It is definitely a Monday!! Not only is it a Monday, but it's only 8 am! I have a feeling this is going to be a lonnnng day!!! I started the day off wrong by hitting snooze about 6 times.. I couldn't help it! T kept tossing and turning all night last night! And apparently he got up in the middle of the night and went to the gym? Idk. Men are a mystery to me. Anyway, he kept waking me up every time he would move! So the nice 8 hours of sleep that i had planned didn't happen. Now here I sit in the quiet office trying to concentrate on the data i need to enter. My eyelids just feel so heavy that i decided to take a break and write a new blog post!
I'm sorry this is such a  choppy post. I wonder if those of you who will read it will even be able to make sense out of it. Like I said it's Monday and I am sleeeepy!! I wish that I could inherit a crap ton of money, so I could quit my job and focus only on school! That would be so nice! Though I doubt that I could actually do that. After having a full time job for the last 2 years I don't think I could go back to full time student/part time worker. I know I look at my peers that are full time students and I almost think of them as kids. It isn't that I look down on them at all! I love them to death, they just don't understand the maturity and responsibility it takes to work full time. They all live on campus and eat in the cafeteria if they don't feel like making dinner. They don't pay rent or utilities, or any other monthly bills like phone or Internet. It is all provided for them.  Again, I don't look down on them; I just couldn't go back to that lifestyle after living like this for two years. I would always feel like I was forgetting to pay something, or do something. Let me revise my first statement...I wish that I could inherit a bunch of money so it would be easier for T and I to get a place together..and maybe I could leave this job for something a little different and a little closer to my major.
Speaking of which...I have no earthly idea what "something a little closer to my major" would be. I don't think I've studied enough to go into advertising right now, but I feel like my people skills are just second nature, so something in PR would be ideal for right now. I  think I  would like to do some sort of event planning. Even if I was just an assistant to an event planner (coffee girl) I am certain that I could learn SO much! Not only would I be learning a lot but I would make valuable network connections. A friend of mine from school was talking about someone she knew that moved to DC and got a job working contracted for the army. Essentially her job was to plan events for important army personnel and then walk around with them at said event and make sure that they know everyone's names. It reminds me of Anne Hathaway's character on The Devil Wears Prada, but still she apparently makes 6 figures doing it. I would be MORE then happy to remember a bunch of stuffy shirted men and women's names for $100,000 a year!! I would say that I could even get a job like that somewhere around here at one of the army bases or something...who knows. Since I am so "responsible" I need to be checking out my different options instead of just keeping my head down at a job I dislike that is not even closely related to what I am studying.  I know people always laugh  when they ask me what my major is and I tell them ad and pr. "what are you doing in engineering than?!" To which I always respond "...i have NO idea." Hahaha.
Well I suppose I should get back to work now. I've wasted enough time with mindless dribble. Everyone have a lovely day! :)

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Sorry I got really busy again!! Anyway here is my weight this week!

07/18/13: 169.2

It's not as bad as I thought it was going to be!! Just gained a couple of oz! This next week I'm sure ill be able to lose the weight!

Hope you're having a lovely weekend! 

<3 

R

Tomrrow! o.O

Well, it would seem that tomorrow is Thursday! I know I am going to have to step on the scale and be disappointed! I have done horrible the past week! Work has been incredibly stressful! I've even been to busy to write anything on here. Friday and Saturday of last week were 11 hour days and Monday-today has been 12 hours. That means early mornings and late nights. I've eaten a lot of take out and a lot of pizza. The scope of the event my team is doing is just so huge we only crawl out the conference room a couple times a day...only to stand/work in the 100 degree heat. I wish they would provide us with healthy options like fruit and juice, but instead we have soda and various pastries for breakfast and pizza for lunch. None of which are good on the waist line!! I realize that I could bring my own healthy choices, but by the time I get home I have just enough energy to shower and eat dinner. I'm usually asleep before my head even hits the pillow!
Now enough with my excuses!! Today SHOULD be the last day of this event! Which means one more day of junk food and then I am back at it!! I've got all the stuff for some delicious salads and some fun low calorie dinners! I'm ready to get back to eating good and feeling healthy. It's crazy to me that even after just 2 weeks of eating healthy and taking vitamins how much better I felt! This week I've felt tired and bloated! I even developed a small cold. I don't know if that has anything to do with eating unhealthy and long hours, or if it was just bound to happen. Idk! I do know that I can wait to try the Mediterranean "chicken" wrap recipe my sister gave me! It's really low-cal, but has quite a pit of protein in it!!
Anyway, It is time I head back to the bat cave to hopefully begin wrapping up this hell of a week! See you tomorrow....*queue menacing music...

R

Biggest Loser for One week 2

Well I missed last weeks update! I had last week off for the 4th of July so I wasn't around my work computer. This is where I do about 95% of all of my writing....a waste of company time? Probably. Do I care? ...Nope. Hahaha anyway this post includes last weeks weight and this weeks.

6/4/13: weight- 169.8
6/11/13: weight- 168.4

:) :) :) So I've lost almost 3lbs so far! I have to say I'm pretty happy with myself. I may not have lost a crap ton of weight, but it is progress! It will only get better from here!! Here is to what I hope is another healthy week!

R

Biggest Loser...for one

Gooood morning every one! So yesterday I decided to start a biggest loser contest...with myself. I allowed myself one last day of unhealthy eating, but today it begins!! So here are my measurements...drumroll pleaseeeee
Biceps- 11.5 in
Hamstrings- 23 in
Calf- 14 in
Waist- 37 in
Bust- 41 in
Hips- 43 in
Weight- 171.2 lbs!! :|
06.27.13
I'm not exactly fond of ANY of these numbers but that is what this whole thing is about! Changing my lifestyle and in turn these numbers!! I plan on posting weekly my weight, but only monthly what my measurements are as those usually change slower than weight.

Here is to the next 6 months of my life getting back on track; eating and living a healthy active lifestyle! I know I can do it!!

R